i've never felt disappointed before

Yesterday my ex-student taught me the correct word to describe how I felt (that is reflected in yesterday's post) is not angry, but disappointed.

Yes,i think i felt disappointed, with myself & the students exactly.

Have told them how i felt this morning and hoping tat they know they're in d wrong.

And i certainly don't want such thing happen again 'cos is indeed disappointing.

Today i'm supposed to have another group of students to see me at 1.30pm.

Three of them DIDN'T TURN UP!

One of them wasn't in school. Two of them were found chit chatting in the canteen! I asked them why they're not meeting me.

One said I sms the meeting was yesterday, and not today. So meaning he belonged to the yesterday's group of pple?! The other said... I Couldn't remember what he said!

Wah.. I just felt very very very frustrated.

Partially is because one of my 4T students told me tat he has bought the materials for his project and asked me when he can start practical!

I was like ... ... How come he's asking and none of the 4n4 is asking?!?!

When i'm writing this,my heart is sinking, sinking and sinking. I've never had this feeling for long time.

Is like i'm busy thinking how their proj should work,and they don't even ask. Or they think still ve alot of time in the world.

Perhaps i take things too seriously.

It's their coursework and how come i worry more than them?

Their projects are little bit more complex than others. So I should focus on them first. That's what I thought.

Today, finally I've come to my senses.

Now i just tell myself tat i should focus on those who ask for help. And i feel more appreciated.

Perhaps the issue is i WANT TO FEEL APPRECIATED and I want to see them trying.

Or I would say, today is just not my day.

I'm still feeling upset. :(